Well, I made it through yesterday just fine. I didn't feel Hungry, I wasn't craving anything, I finished my workout last night and came home and went to bed. But I slept horrible! I feel like it took hours to fall asleep and once I finally did, I dreamed about brownies. Eating warm, soft, gooey brownies. Then brownie pudding! If you haven't had this amazing little piece of heaven, you need to. Its this yummy brownie made from scratch that bakes and floats on top of a homemade chocolate pudding. Eat it hot with a scoop of vanilla bean ice cream and you will be happy. Here is a picture of the delectable dessert. Mmmmm-mmmm!



Now obviously I cant eat things like this right now. And I have a horrible sweet tooth. I knew I would need something to satisfy it without cheating. My purse is now full of extra gum dessert delights. The apple pie is my favorite followed by the mint chocolate chip ice cream. The others are so-so. Ill chew them but I wont buy them again. I'm definitely glad to of found it though. Otherwise, I may of gotten up and made brownie pudding for breakfast. :)



Tonight at the gym I will be focusing on my shoulders and deltoids. My biceps are so sore from Monday and Tuesday's workouts that I can barely straighten my elbows. It hurts so bad!! I love knowing that something is working though. All this hard work will be worth it in the end! I failed to mention before, I am sticking to my new diet and exercise routine for the next 3 months. That's about the time I go on the cruise. I'm hoping to meet all my fitness goals by then and only have to maintain after. Crossing my fingers that I do!


You have to sweat like a pig and work like a horse to look like a fox!

Day 2

Well, I did it. I made it through the first day!! I have to admit, it wasn't as hard as I was expecting...here's hoping today isn't any harder! I think the food was the most boring part. And eating 5 small meals a day is a little rough. I felt like I was just eating all day! But I found something yesterday. Something wonderful!! A condiments line that has 0 calories, 0 carve, 0 sugar, 0 gluten. They have tons of salad dressings, bbq sauces, syrups, peanut butter, jams, Mayo, and even chocolate and caramel sauces!! The brand is Walden Farms and I found them at Harmon's.



If you don't think that's great, you are crazy!! My oatmeal this morning was so much better with a little maple syrup. And I don't even have to feel guilty about it! I could just kiss the creator of this amazing line!

Anyway, I will stop rambling now. Last night I did a 2 hour workout at my favorite gym and only one I'll go to, lifetime fitness. I did my hour of weights followed by an hour of cardio. It felt great! But man those stair machines are hard! I am all to familiar with escalators. Doing a few flights of stairs last night made me realize I need to stop cheating and use these legs I have when given the choice between actual stairs or an escalator.



Well I am ready to get this day going! I get to do a couple loads of laundry today and mop the floors while the kids are napping. I know you are jealous! ;)

They say you are what you eat. Funny, I don't remember eating a sexy beast.

Day 1

Well, this is it. No more brownies and cookies. No more cupcakes and reeses peanut butter cups. No more sugary cereals and chocolate milk. *sigh* I am done looking the way I look and I have accepted that I really am the only one who can change myself. So as of today, I am on my way to that skinny, tight and toned little body that I can be proud of. I wont sit down and have to tuck that fat roll hanging over into my pant anymore. Or wear great big baggy shirts to hide the chub. This is it!!

I started off me week my going to bed at 930. I have not done that in years and years! I got up at 7 and boiled a big pot of eggs. 36 to be eggsact! :) while they were cooking I made myself a bowl of oatmeal. Actual oatmeal, not the little packets you buy filled with maple and brown sugar. Real, plain, flavorless oatmeal. I put a little cinnamon in it for flavor, but it was not the best breakfast ive ever had. With that I choked down 24 oz of water and 9.pills! Everything from fish oil, to calcium. Lunch should be more exciting. And tonight, the gym!! I'm going to focus mostly on upper body the first couple days along with an hour of cardio. I am planning on being there 2 hours a day, 6 days a week, every week until I reach my goals.

This is going to be a long journey and I am expecting a few bumps along the way. I am hoping that writing this blog will help me to release my struggles instead of turning to food. Some days I may come and do nothing but complain (hopefully not too many) and other days I may come and talk about how easy and wonderful this is(maybe) . But regardless, this is my new life and I am going to make this change not only for myself, but for my loving and supportive family as well. So on that note, take care until next time!

"I wish I was as skinny as I was when I thought I was fat"